Assessment

This is it! After been discussing and talking about this with SKII for months, finally I come to this day. The assessment day. My feeling? A little nervous. Do I want it? Ermmm, let’s just say that, not as much as how I desperately wanted that ONLY ONE tiny box to be ticked so that I’m an ELITE instructor! Yea, I haven’t let it go. I’m a sucker for perfection. Why didn’t she just tick that one little box? Advanced is good. But I don’t want to be good! I want more than that!! Advanced is not good enough!!!!!!! Rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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OK, where was I just now? *giggles*

Wow, I couldn’t believe that I still haven’t let it go. Yea, I haven’t let it go. But I accept the fact that, all this is not given. It needs to be earned. Okay, I understand. It means, I need to work harder!

Anyhoo, as for this assessment, I take it as part of learning process. It’s only an assessment anyways, doesn’t mean anything. It could mean nothing, for all I know. Just an assessment and that’s it. Heehee. I don’t have any expectation. Actually, there’s nothing to expect. Unless if it is an assessment, whereby if I excel, I’ll get that one stupid box tick, then it’s another story.

On Guard

Not the kind of guard I always “preach” in the class. This is on guard as in for my wrist. Yep, twisted my left wrist. Again and again. I can now reckon, my left wrist is the weakest part of my body, no longer my back. For some unknown reasons, well at least for my big toe case, it’s always the left wrist and right big toe that hurt so much after each weight training. As for wrist, it will only hurt every time I add on few kilos in my training. The subsequent training, it doesn’t hurt usually. But, big toe??! Have no idea at all. =/

Of all those I did yesterday, I enjoyed my triceps workout the most. I did:

Lying Triceps Extensions – 3 sets x 10 reps
Lying Dumbbell Extensions with 15kg – 3 sets x 10 reps
Dips Between Benches with 10kg plate – 3 sets x Reps to failure (thanks to Dana Linn’s very inspiring picture sent by KG – hahaa!)

Triceps were on fire!!! Awesomest!!! Decided to put this the last workout before I move on to legs. I’ve always wanted to have nice shoulders, so it has been my priority to start on that part before anything else before I drain my energy. Now, I’ve to work on my back muscles. I noticed yesterday that I actually have a bad posture. It looks like I’m slouching when actually I’m not. Of course among other things, habit in office does contribute to this one. I’ve a weak back and it’s not good. Until, I strengthen this part, I’ll always struggle for them decent unassisted pull ups. Something to look forward to in 2012. Getting better physically.

On a shorter fresher note, today is the last day of working for 2011! Woohoo. Productivity level = 0%. Hahaa!!! Will be on leave starting tomorrow. Sa-weet!! *hula hoop dance* Going to stay back office to finish up everything. Don’t want to tapau work back home!

Quit?!

I’ve been mentally tired nowadays. Adjusting to my new job has taken helluva toll on me. Still, I’m grateful that I’ve a job. Not the perfect one, but the job that pays my bills. I’ve been skipping my weights training for a week now. Nowadays, if I don’t have class to teach, I would rather head home and sleep.

Anyways…

Lately…

I’ve a thought of…

…… quitting GX. Stop teaching BC for a year top. OK, I’m happy with what’s going on at the moment, but I used to be happier. A good friend once told me, “… the more you workout, the more your soul is disappearing. Workout is supposed to make you happy but if you’re tired and not happy while working out, what’s the point? It is supposed to enrich you not to drain. Noted that you’re at your best fitness, great shape but lack of soul? Think about it.”

Hmmmm………

I don’t know. But I do know, my goal is slipping away from me and I don’t think I’ll ever get close to it again. Pure sadness. 

It’s Snowy In Here

Can you see the snow on my blog? It’s December. It’s a happy-happy month.

25 more days to new year. I can’t believe I’m counting down. Actually, I’m not. But I do have 1 resolution for 2012. I will add on more later, but for now I’ve one in mind. And that is to train my legs harder. 2012 is the year to have a leaner legs! Knowing my body type and my family genes, it’s a challenge for me. But. What is sweeter than doing things against your family genes? Hahaa!! I mean it in a good way, mom. None of my family members has a pair of slim legs. None! Not my siblings, not cousins, not my aunties, not my grannies, and certainly not my mom. We all were born to have a better shape of upper body and stubborn lower body. Not complaining. Still grateful to have a pair of strong legs.

So yeah, 2012!!! Year of leaner legs. Already I’m smelling the pain and sore. Awesome!

BC50 has been officially rolled out last night. And 1MK was a lucky bunch. Not because they had us to launch (NOOOO!), but lucky to be the 1st bunch to have a great taste of BC50. Awesome release! Just like any other releases, I’m so looking forward to teach this release. T5 is my favourite because I look cool in it it is such a strong number, too cool for BC, and mannnnnn…… I swear, towards the end of the track, I’ve nothing in my mind just my heavy punching bag, hanging inside my room. That’s when imagination is at its best! That moment! I had goosebumps. It’s a good thing. During my younger years (ahem), every time when I was in a fight and I had goosebumps, I won.  … So, it’s a good thing, ey? What is not? When you’re in an empty room, and you have goosebumps. Teehee.

Anyways, the launch was awesome. The kind of feeling that you know your members felt it, then you know you’ve done something right. Bring it on, next round. Hello MBF!!!

On to the next note, I’m having a dehydration issue. Not major. It will be, if I don’t do anything to fix it. Ever since I added on creatine into my supplements regime, this happened. Not blaming on the supplements because I know it retains water and will dehydrate me if I don’t drink a lot. Like A LOT!!! I have to, else I’ll have this irritating dizziness and not to mention dry skin. Thing is, I feel that my bladder is about to explode from drinking plain water, literally like how I breathe. Not complaining. Merely stating. I chose to add on creatine into the regime. It is safe to be consumed just that I need to drink a lot of water, which I’m slacking at the moment. So yea, I’m blaming myself. Teehee~

“I’m like a water tank. Press me belly… I will pee…”

On a fresher note, SK-II informed me about some BC-related stuff last night, which honestly, I’m not in the same wavelength with her. From the way how she explained it to me, it sounds conflicting and not to mention, redundant. Well, haven’t really properly sit down and discuss so, I’ll keep things in the shelf at the moment. If it is really redundant just like what I thought right now, I’ll take a back seat. I don’t like redundancy. Shan’t talk more about it now.

Laters.

Breathless

It has been a very busy week for me at work. Yeah, the Lady has started her new job in a brand new office (coincidently, a brand new department too). How cool. Nahh, not really. Work has been tough so far and I’m struggling to catch up; both deadlines and breath. New working environment is OK. New colleagues are the type that I prefer; those that don’t meddle in people’s life. I kinda like it. And yea, being an audit department, it is exceptionally quiet there. The only noise I can hear is the sound of keypad, stapler, paper hole puncher, and the sound of to-be-opened biscuits packet. OK, once in a while they do talk to each other but they are not loud. And because of that, I think people go to pantry if they want to answer a call. It’s a quiet office and you certainly don’t want to be the person who breaks them silence. But I kinda like this peacefulness. It suits me. So far. 3rd week and counting.

By the way, I’ve dropped my Monday slot in 1MK. Sadly, it was a short term ‘love’ relationship between us but I had blast. Super BLAST!!! Feel sayang to let go, but I need to prioritize my work. I’ve promised myself to create a different attitude towards this new job. Need to start on a right foot, if possible, for everything. So, I think this year, I might say NO to a lot of class covers. But then again, this year is just left with 1 month. Hahaaa!!! No, I mean it. Priority changes. So does mine.

On a more interesting note, BC50 launches are just around the corner. My 1st launch will be in 1MK with SK-II. Well, only if my boss allows me to leave early on that day. Haven’t checked with her yet. But, I’ve a feeling that I might not be able to launch on that day. Sadness. Never mind. Maybe some other time. I’m not going anywhere. FF is not going anywhere.

Alright, gotta catch some beautiful sleep. Laters.

Crazy Awesome Weekend

That was one helluva weekend. Great weekend with amazing people around me. Some kind of reminding me why I’m doing this at the first place.

Alright, KL Q4 Workshop was held last Saturday, an avenue where all instructors meet and gossip catch up on each other’s stories. I had an impression that this Q4 is going to be BOOMS as half of BC Program Director was here in KL. Awesome. The 1st time I met her was in December 2009. So in a span of 2 years or less, I met her again. Lucky me. But I didn’t snap any photo with her this time around. I had it the 1st time I met her. Although I was at 85kg that time, but who cares. Rachael is still her. Owh shit, I should have done that. Now that I’m 65kg. Hahaaa!!! Who cares? Boohoo.

Not only that made me excited for this QW. The fact that BFF came down from Singapore was an added excitement.

The only thing that was a little disappointing was the unavailability of our resources. I’ve a feeling that TTFC didn’t do a good job for this quarterlies. I thought they were paid to hold this workshop? No? I think they were paid. Who want to do things for free nowadays? Even if you want to poop, you have to pay 50 cents. You get my drift. Apparently, some people are just doing things for the sake of doing it and for some reasons, they didn’t bother to check why were the resources not in their hands yet. OK, perhaps they checked. I’m not interested to know. Whatever was the reason, please be responsible and do your job. Annoying to the brink! *updated : It was LMAP who sent the resources late and not TTFC’s fault.

On another note, Singapore Q4 Workshop was great! I’ve to admit that there were certain programs presented better in Singapore compared to KLQW. Except BC. BC was presented better in KLQW. Despite the liking of BT over there, it wasn’t as happening as in KL. At T8, few people from the floor were invited or rather SELF-INVITED themselves to the stage. They rocked T8, and I’m not talking about the track itself. I mean the stage! Too heavy for the stage. Hahaaa! Even Rach looked back to the people behind her and asked them not to move so much. LOL!!! Few people were really invited by Rach to share the stage; those who were there in Auckland during BC50 filming. That’s fine. But some with poor appearance and not to mention “pitchy” techniques, self invited themselves up and it was really sore to my eyes. Sorry for the words, but really. Sore! And believe me, it was not only my eyes. I bet to some other participants on the floor as well. But who cares? I was there to have fun and of course for the love of BC50. I left when Sh’bam was about to start. So I didn’t see how good other programs were. I bet they were!

Overall, kudos to the organiser of Singapore QW as the registration and everything went smoothly. They had their resources arranged well, I like that. I should have asked my resources to be sent to Singapore like my initial plan. But I didn’t. Sigh~ Let’s just hope I’ll get mind by this week.

Rain In My Heart