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Assessment

ninananeen — Tue, 03 Jan 2012 08:39:13 +0000

This is it! After been discussing and talking about this with SKII for months, finally I come to this day. The assessment day. My feeling? A little nervous. Do I want it? Ermmm, let’s just say that, not as much as how I desperately wanted that ONLY ONE tiny box to be ticked so that I’m an ELITE instructor! Yea, I haven’t let it go. I’m a sucker for perfection. Why didn’t she just tick that one little box? Advanced is good. But I don’t want to be good! I want more than that!! Advanced is not good enough!!!!!!! Rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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OK, where was I just now? *giggles*

Wow, I couldn’t believe that I still haven’t let it go. Yea, I haven’t let it go. But I accept the fact that, all this is not given. It needs to be earned. Okay, I understand. It means, I need to work harder!

Anyhoo, as for this assessment, I take it as part of learning process. It’s only an assessment anyways, doesn’t mean anything. It could mean nothing, for all I know. Just an assessment and that’s it. Heehee. I don’t have any expectation. Actually, there’s nothing to expect. Unless if it is an assessment, whereby if I excel, I’ll get that one stupid box tick, then it’s another story.

On Guard

ninananeen — Tue, 27 Dec 2011 05:55:37 +0000

Not the kind of guard I always “preach” in the class. This is on guard as in for my wrist. Yep, twisted my left wrist. Again and again. I can now reckon, my left wrist is the weakest part of my body, no longer my back. For some unknown reasons, well at least for my big toe case, it’s always the left wrist and right big toe that hurt so much after each weight training. As for wrist, it will only hurt every time I add on few kilos in my training. The subsequent training, it doesn’t hurt usually. But, big toe??! Have no idea at all. =/

Of all those I did yesterday, I enjoyed my triceps workout the most. I did:

Lying Triceps Extensions – 3 sets x 10 reps
Lying Dumbbell Extensions with 15kg – 3 sets x 10 reps
Dips Between Benches with 10kg plate – 3 sets x Reps to failure (thanks to Dana Linn’s very inspiring picture sent by KG – hahaa!)

Triceps were on fire!!! Awesomest!!! Decided to put this the last workout before I move on to legs. I’ve always wanted to have nice shoulders, so it has been my priority to start on that part before anything else before I drain my energy. Now, I’ve to work on my back muscles. I noticed yesterday that I actually have a bad posture. It looks like I’m slouching when actually I’m not. Of course among other things, habit in office does contribute to this one. I’ve a weak back and it’s not good. Until, I strengthen this part, I’ll always struggle for them decent unassisted pull ups. Something to look forward to in 2012. Getting better physically.

On a shorter fresher note, today is the last day of working for 2011! Woohoo. Productivity level = 0%. Hahaa!!! Will be on leave starting tomorrow. Sa-weet!! *hula hoop dance* Going to stay back office to finish up everything. Don’t want to tapau work back home!

Quit?!

ninananeen — Fri, 09 Dec 2011 02:59:44 +0000

I’ve been mentally tired nowadays. Adjusting to my new job has taken helluva toll on me. Still, I’m grateful that I’ve a job. Not the perfect one, but the job that pays my bills. I’ve been skipping my weights training for a week now. Nowadays, if I don’t have class to teach, I would rather head home and sleep.

Anyways…

Lately…

I’ve a thought of…

…… quitting GX. Stop teaching BC for a year top. OK, I’m happy with what’s going on at the moment, but I used to be happier. A good friend once told me, “… the more you workout, the more your soul is disappearing. Workout is supposed to make you happy but if you’re tired and not happy while working out, what’s the point? It is supposed to enrich you not to drain. Noted that you’re at your best fitness, great shape but lack of soul? Think about it.”

Hmmmm………

I don’t know. But I do know, my goal is slipping away from me and I don’t think I’ll ever get close to it again. Pure sadness.